I have a pattern. A very hideous pattern.
On Thursday night I spoke to a bit of a blast from the past. Talking to him, he was drunk at eight at night, was a huge revelation. I’m not being straight edged when I say he was drunk on a Thursday night. We’ve all been drunk on a Thursday night as early as 8pm, but he was belligerent. Belligerent and telling me that he’s getting his life together. Really? I thought that’s what you were doing two years ago?
I need to break the cycle. Get away from these alcoholics with lives that are a mess. I can honestly say that I don’t have my shit together, but I don’t have children or ex-spouses and I’m not 30+. There is a big difference between me and them. The easiest difference is the booze, but I want more than that.
I cannot believe that I can name… FIVE different male influences in my (dating) life that have had a problem with liquor. I try to be the positive, stable influence in their lives, but WHY? Someone should be taking care of me!
So I’m putting my foot down, I need someone who may not have it all together, but they have direction and they have a HEALTHY relationship with alcohol.